The Long Walk Through My Heart

The roads here seemed dirtier, the streets and surroundings less cultivated and the faces less friendly. Even the air felt heavier, making it more difficult for me to breath. As if my own emotions weren’t suffocating me enough.
However, I quickly made peace with the fact that this might very well be the longest walk I had ever dared to face - the long road through my heart.
As I furthered down the streets of Kuilsriver, on route to his house, old memories of the surrounding areas enveloped me in child hood moments.  I use to be so comfortable here. I use to love walking through the cocooned back streets and play in the old neglected park next to the library. I remember the days when I would hunt for grasshoppers and other small critters that I could call friend. It was then that I realised that life is only as perfect as you make it out to be.
It might seem like a bold statement and you might think I’m crazy for making it, but to me it’s true. I had hurt my ex before, I was well aware of that fact. I had hurt his family with lies and false rumors, just so that I could sooth my own anger. It seemed so petty now. To waste all that time and effort, pushing away the people that I would one day run to for help. Perhaps they had forgive me? Perhaps they had moved on from my betrayal? The only hope that I had was the hope of telling them I am sorry and the hope that they would not massacre me in the process.
Memories faded as I drew closer to the corner cafe of an unknown street. It seemed like one of those worn out shops that no one visited and charged 14 rand for what was suppose to be a cheap loaf of bread. I couldn't help but wonder what I was getting myself in to?

The corner cafe seemed less threatening while I passed it, this was clearly the point of town where the people started to smile again. I realized that I actually knew this part, it was Soneike, I had not lived far from this exact house all too long ago.
The plot was composed of a colossal garden and an even bigger brick faced house. The eerie clouds that encompassed the plot made it seem like I was entering a scene in a horror movie and that was exactly how I felt.
At least I was not left alone with my fears and doubts for too long. The front door swung open, and he came out...