Even though my eyes are open, I’ll keep dreaming and I’ll believe forever more.
Edward Winter
The pitch black night sky was the perfect canvass for the ashen clouds that the angels painted, clouds that allowed heavens tears to pound against the barred up windows of our room. Arctic air played with the swirls of smoke that came from his cigarette, every now and then it found its way and the coldness pinched our cheeks, giving us reason to cuddle even closer together.
Soon enough his warm body was pressed hard against mine, purging the glacial coldness from all around me.
Without hesitation he wrapped his arms around me, it was the only place I wanted to be and he knew that. He lifted his arms and allowed me to place my head on his chest. As I did the familiar sound of his drumming heartbeat eradicated all other sounds that enveloped us. Pure serenity and love encompassed the room, ushering us into a world that only we were allowed to visit. A world where nothing else mattered and only love prevailed.
It was so amazing how we didn’t need words anymore to say ‘I love you’ we both just knew that it was the truth. Yet still he started his evening routine by placing his palm on my cheeks and I could feel them burn red under the heat of his hand. Slowly he lifted my face so that my gaze would meet his.
“I love you and I always will, I’ll never stop, not in this life or ever okay?” he asked in a soft tone of voice. His eyes set a fire with a blaze that could only be identified as pure love.
Finally he ended his statement with the moment I’ve been waiting for – his perfect smile. Every time he smiled his eyes would light up with a radiance so magnificent that it would bring brilliance to even the darkest corners of existence. It was a smile that I loved, even more than the soft kisses he gave after each time he made his declaration of affection clear.
The soft touch of his lips against mind sent a shock of white hot intensity pulsating through my body. It was a feeling that made my heartbeat race with his until the sound of our drumming hearts synchronized. It was a feeling that lasted long after the kiss had ended and he had embraced me in one of his tight bear hugs.
“Thank you for being in my life, and allowing me to love you,” I said as a tears formed in the beds of my eyes. Not even now that I was engaged to him could I truly understand how I deserved a love so magnificent.
I closed my eyes, allowing the beauty of his heartbeat lullaby me into a peaceful night’s sleep.
“I love you, and I always will,” I whispered as I finally closed my eyes.
I opened my eyes as the sunlight streamed into the room from behind the blinds, smiling as I stretched out and turned to face him. But he was gone, the room was different and I was in a single bed. As I realized that it was only a dream a final tear fell onto the bed, with a thud it fell onto the linen duplicating the sound of his heartbeat.
